Saturday, August 22, 2009

Love

Love is the number one commandment.
God tells us to love him with all our hearts with all our soul and all our mind. Love is wanting to please the other one. To love on the level of that commandment also means putting the other one first. It's hard being so human to put others first. What about me? we say, we all want love and then when we get it, we toy with it. Taking it for granite. and expecting more. I am loved by so very many and at times it can even feel as a burden instead of up lifting. I feel so selfish and I hate selfish! I know how love feels how the heart drives in high gear to be with the one you love. To walk down a path to see something that reminds you of the one you love. To have only $10.00 in your pocket and want something for the both of you and buy for the other one cause you'll do with out. The pain that can, and will accompany love is too hard for some to bare so they choose to not love at all.
That's not what God of all has commanded. I feel myself today asking and leaning on God, these words. God of all , help heal my heart my soul my spirit. Satan has tampered with your child's heart and soul. I being this child get arrogant and he slipped in. I have let the past haunt me and have fought hard to have fun and live a life of freedom from responsibility. But I walk down a destructive path that is narrow dark and lonely. Just to find a glimpse of laughter and a physical touch. To feel my heart be awoken, and alive. I look at this world of aging people and I too follow. It is so very scary to me. I don't want to be old in any form, looks or actions. I actually enjoy my alone time and that too is scary. The lack of money to survive. You have given to me so much. My personality that when used for you can shine Jesus love to the whole room. A child like nature that makes the hardest of hearts open. Thank you God for that. I ask you to remove the ugly from my heart, take away my sinful desire and nature. Please Father don't let my hand go from yours. Walk with me even when I look away. Protect me from my own discussions even if it hurts me now. My ultimate goal is to be with you father. I ask you now if you can't or won't change my heart and protect me from myself. Bless my family they love me so. The love I feel from others is so big.
The Lord will answer all those children who kneel before the thrown and ask.
Have Thine Own Way Lord